Feel most honoured to have again been listed on the Top 10 List of Counsellors in Toronto (2018). I feel very privileged to work with such wonderful clients.
Years ago, I managed a provincial Eating Disorder Awareness Week campaign themed, “Fitness or Fat Phobia?” I had long been concerned with the growing numbers of athletes – amateur, varsity and professional – who had been contacting the Eating Disorder Resource Centre of British Columbia with concerns of disordered eating, over exercise and/or body dysmorphia. In the years leading up to this campaign, I had made several attempts to reach out to coaches, but I was most often met with denial that there were any such issues within their particular sport or among their athletes.
By the time we launched this particular campaign, there had been a shift in awareness and I was approached to speak to a provincial organization of coaches. Coaches had become more aware of the potentially serious consequences of eating disorders and were more familiar with some of the more overt symptoms. Moreover, many of the coaches were lost as to what to do, and they realized that they and their athletes needed help and guidance.
According to a Norwegian study cited on the National Eating Disorder Information Centre’s (NEDIC) website, elite athletes demonstrate significantly higher rates of eating disorders compared to population controls. In one study, 20% of elite female athletes met the criteria for having an eating disorder, compared to 9% of female controls. In men, 8% of elite male athletes met the criteria for having an eating disorder, compared to 0.5% of male controls.
Female athletes competing in aesthetic sports (e.g. dance, gymnastics and figure skating) were found to be at the highest risk for eating disorders. Athletes competing in weight-class and endurance sports were also at elevated risk for eating disorders (2004, Sungot-Borgen, J. & Torstveit, M.K. Prevalence of Eating Disorders in Elite Athletes is Higher Than in the General Population. Clinical Journal of Sport Medicine, 14,1, pp 25-32).
In a study of Division 1 NCAA athletes (highest level of varsity athletes in the US), over one-third of female athletes reported attitudes and symptoms placing them at risk for anorexia nervosa. Although most athletes with eating disorders are female, male athletes are also at risk, particularly those competing in sports that tend to place an emphasis on the athlete’s diet, appearance, size and weight requirements, such as wrestling, bodybuilding, crew, and running (NEDA, 2015).
While these studies highlight the increased risk in certain sports for females and males to develop eating disorders, and these statistics reflect my own clinical experience with regard to higher risk, it is important to emphasize that eating disorders exist in a far wider range of individual and team sports.
A few years ago, NEDIC’s conference included a workshop on eating disorders among varsity athletes. The four coaches on the panel shared their experiences and concerns regarding eating disorders among their athletes, one in fact begging for forgiveness to any of her former athletes for her prior approach that had included routine measuring of her female athletes’ body fat, a measure that she no longer believed made any significant difference to their performance, and had since recognized that such testing often caused unnecessary anxiety and potential harm to her athletes. In retrospect, she speculated as to how many might have engaged in unhealthy dieting and eating disorder behaviours to lower their percentage of fat.
Another spoke of her focus on good nutrition, proportion and strength as well as discussed female athletes’ uniforms, pointing out that her team wore shorts and waist length singlets in contrast to the more revealing and body focussed bikini bottoms of comparable university teams in the US.
One coach spoke about his men’s football team and how, until he had started to prepare his presentation for the conference, he had believed that none of his male athletes had disordered eating. However, after researching the subject, he revised his opinion such that he claimed that almost every one of his athletes likely struggled with some degree of disordered eating. He believed that steroid use was no longer an issue on his team, but he remained concerned about his athletes’ binge eating and enema use before games.
There was one very experienced coach of a women’s varsity team who, despite having dropped skin fold testing (i.e., body fat) for several years, she had recently resumed the practice in her effort to help her athletes “not necessarily to lose weight” but to become fitter and to improve performance. Although she acknowledged that in the past she had had some athletes with eating disorders, she was confident that now she would absolutely know if any of “her girls” were struggling with such a problem.
Like family members, partners and close friends who can’t imagine that their loved one would deceive them, coaches often underestimate the degree to which individuals may hide or lie about their eating disorder behaviours even if they may never have been deceitful about anything else. Coaches may not appreciate the depth of shame and secrecy – and the dependency as a means of coping with life’s transitions and day to day stresses – of athletes who struggle with eating disorders.
Female athletes are at a particular risk of developing what is referred to as the “Female Athlete Triad”: disordered eating, amenorrhea (consecutive loss of menses) and osteoporosis (loss in bone density). All of these are serious and potentially life threatening medical concerns that can have long term consequences. Insufficient nutrition and loss of weight often results in amenorrhea, which in turn leads to calcium and bone loss, putting the female athlete at a much greater risk for stress fractures of the bones. While this triad is worrisome for any female athlete (or any female, for that matter), the risk is far more significant for adolescents girls because of their growing bodies, combined with peer and social pressures, as well as rapid life transitions.
Over the course of my career in this field, I have worked with many competitive athletes struggling with eating disorders. As all of my clients would know, I am a firm believer that sport can potentially help participants: to increase his or her level of health, to improve body image, to improve self-esteem, to increase a sense of belonging, to develop a better understanding of food as critical fuel, to increase bone density, and to prevent or better cope with stress, anxiety and depression. However, sometimes things get off track, particularly if an athlete is predisposed genetically, is in an environment that emphasizes weight and shape over health and performance, and/or is struggling to cope with the combined pressures of life, sport and academia (or a career).
The athletes I work with are almost always afraid that recovery from their eating disorder will translate to a decrease in athletic performance. And what has surprised every athlete that I have worked with is their eventual realization that improved nutrition, strategic training, increased energy, better concentration and emotional stability most often increase their performance and competitive edge, not to mention improve their relationships with their fellow athletes and coaches. All in all, a win win result.
Particular Risk Factors for Athletes:
- Sports that emphasize appearance, weight requirements or muscularity. For example: gymnastics, diving, bodybuilding or wrestling.
- Sports that focus on the individual rather than the entire team. For example: gymnastics, running, figure skating, dance or diving, versus teams sports such as basketball or soccer.
- Endurance sports such as track and field/running, swimming.
- Overvalued belief that lower body weight will improve performance.
- Training for a sport since childhood or being an elite athlete.
- Low self-esteem; family dysfunction (including parents who live through the success of their child in sport); families with eating disorders; chronic dieting; history of physical or sexual abuse; peer, family and cultural pressures to be thin, and other traumatic life experiences.
- Coaches who focus primarily on success and performance rather than on the athlete as a whole person (NEDA, 2015).
Kintsugi – or kintsukuroi – is a Japanese method for repairing broken ceramics with a lacquer dusted or mixed with gold, silver or platinum. The technique visibly incorporates the repair into a new piece instead of concealing it, the process resulting in something different, and usually more beautiful, than the original.
The method is based on the philosophy of kintsugi which regards breakage and repair as part of the history and inherent value of an object, something to be highlighted rather than disguised. Rather than repairing something to be and to appear as good as new, as we most often do in Western culture, kintsugi acknowledges the breakage as an opportunity to create something new and beautiful from what might otherwise be deemed a loss or catastrophe.
I first learned about kintsugi while listening to an interview on CBC about the release of an album of the same name by the band, Death Cab for Cutie. As I listened to the musician’s explanation of how kintsugi transformed a broken object into something more beautiful, I thought about the ways in which the philosophy pertained to the way in which I approach my practice as a psychotherapist.
The individuals that I work with most often seek assistance at a time in their lives when something is perceived as broken or no longer working as it once had, be it an external circumstance such as an unhappy relationship or doing poorly at school, and/or an internal struggle with regard to self-esteem, persistent negative emotions, and very often the dysfunctional manner in which he or she is coping. This is manifested among many of my clients through disordered eating, substance abuse and/or some other self-harming behaviour.
I believe that we develop these behaviours for very good reasons, helping us to cope and to find relief from the stress and pain of our life circumstances. While anything but easy to replace those behaviours with less shame-based and more healthy and functional coping strategies, it can and does happen. However, as one makes changes in him or herself, and develops new ways of being in the world, as with the art of kintsugi, one evolves as different and in my view, more beautiful in light of honouring both the person’s past experience as well as his or her transitioned new self.
That said, it is not uncommon for others, and in particular for partners and family members (but also friends and colleagues), to themselves wrestle with adapting to the changes in the person and to come to fully appreciate the more confident, authentic and no longer [so called] broken individual. Those who pursue therapy are usually motivated to at least some degree to want change, the status quo no longer being comfortable or even bearable. However, as happy and relieved as others may be with regard to the positive changes in their friend or loved one (e.g., recovery from an eating disorder, addiction or better coping with anxiety), it may still be an adjustment to fully embrace the new dynamics of their relationship with a person who may be, among other things, more assertive with regard to their wants and needs. Hence, the relationships of my clients also often experience some degree of transition; while the new dynamic may be different, it is also usually more healthy, authentic, stronger and happier.
I encourage my clients to embrace their history, including their challenges, as inherent to the person they have become and the person they would like to be. It is the frequently the very breaks and knocks, to which we are all susceptible in our lives, that help us to develop more resilience, self-assurance, strength and authenticity. While I would never wish anyone any adversity, I have repeatedly witnessed in both my own life and in the lives of those with whom I have worked, much like the ceramic pieces repaired with kintsugi, that we can emerge as different but better, through the very process of overcoming these life obstacles.
Flickwerk The Aesthetics of Mended Japanese Ceramics, Paperback, January 1, 2008 by Christy, James Henry Holland and Charly Iten Bartlett.
Kintsugi: The Art of Broken Pieces by Christopher Jobson on May 8, 2014
Kintsugi is the eighth studio album by American indie rock band Death Cab for Cutie, released on March 31, 2015, on Atlantic Records.